PRAYERS FOR HAITI

I’m crying today…my eyes are unable to contain the tears that form with every image I see of the devastation in Haiti. The terrible moments, preserved forever with just one click of a photographer’s camera, are almost too much for this mommy’s heart to bear. CNN is carrying pretty constant coverage of the relief efforts and I find myself running to the TV every time they begin a new story…hoping against hope that this time there may be some good news…some amazing story of survival or reunion between a mother and her child. The only reunions they discuss, though, seem to be the gut-wrenching tale of the mothers, erupting into screams as they pull their dead children from the aftermath. How could any parent survive this? I really, really, really cannot – wouldn’t be able to – don’t want to even try – to imagine the heartache that is exploding, at this very moment, from this small island nation.

I’m praying today…my lips have been moving at at steady rate as I try to remain faithful in my belief that the requests I’m sending straight to God are answered today…right now.  Please Father…the small child I saw today, draped in a dingy white sheet, next to her grieving daddy…please Father, hold her so close upon Your lap, wrap her warmly in Your loving arms. Give her parents, and the many other parents who lost their children to this tragedy, the peace of knowing that, although they can no longer touch the warm cheeks of their babies – no longer kiss the tender lips of their babies – no longer hear the sweet laughter of their babies…that those precious angels are now being held by the One who loves them even more.

I’m hoping today…my mind is racing, in amazement, as I think about the relief workers from all over the world…rushing to the aid of perfect strangers. Many leaving their own families behind, leaving their homes and jobs, their own livelihoods…because other human beings NEED HELP. In this world…where so much ugliness exists…the beauty of humanity can sometimes shine so brightly. All of the times I think God must be crying in Heaven as He witnesses the atrocities caused by His own children…I now think of the satisfied smile that must be on His beautiful face, watching His children…even as He is welcoming several Home.

Now…will you join me as I do my own tiny, tiny part to help with the relief effort? In addition to the most influential way to help…prayer, that is, there is another super easy way to contribute. This is legit, it can be found on the CNN website, and it’s as easy as sending a text message. Now you know that’s something you do at least a hundred times a day anyway. God bless everyone, even if a prayer is all you can afford. These are children who now have no parents, husbands who now have no wives, families who now have no homes, food, or water. Thanks Ya’ll… This is all you have to do:

Text the word “Haiti” to 90999. This is to the American Red Cross and is a $10.00 donation that will be automatically added to your cell phone bill.

OR

Text the word “YELE” to 501501. This is to Wyclef Jean’s Yele Haiti (his homeland) and is a $5.00 donation that will be automatically added to your cell phone bill.

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My Children’s Hope

The history of the blood that runs through my child,

you’d never know by her beautiful smile.

Realities behind her eyes full of life,

of love and of hate, of black and of white…

The history of the two that make up his race,

you’d never know by his beautiful face.

The truths of fear and tears and lies,

we’ll gently acknowledge, his father and I…

The history of the pieces that helped them become,

is much more than the moment sweet freedom was won.

The joys of belief and the sorrows of pain,

their father and I teach them were not in vain…

The promise of hope that my children possess

is greater that any burden upon their chests.

Proud, strong, and Godly we’ll guide them to be.

The perfect, beautiful balance of a deep history.

-Donna Sparrow

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My Starzy Barzy…

I was looking through my writing book today, trying to decide which poem to share for today’ s blog post. It’s a raggedy old book, given to me by my beautiful sister, Darla, way back in my college days (don’t really want to put that into years for you cuz…YIKES!) and I have continually added to it over the two years since I got it (LOL…JK…OMG…I so obviously have pre-teens). Anyway, I was going through this old thang and I came across a wrinkled up, pencil written and faded, piece of torn out, notebook paper. On the back I had scribbled the date – 4/14/02…on the front was a poem written by my precious Star, my Starzy Barzy, when she was just eight years old. I remember when she gave it to me. She was so proud of her work, a very pleased look upon her perfect face as she handed me this gift. As I read it, I made sure that my eyes were smiling and wide open with happiness, as her own big browns were so contently locked on my face trying to gage a reaction…

“I will hod (hold) your hande (hand) if you live (love) me.”

“I will give you a ring if you love me.”

“and I will cland (clean) everyday for you.”

“will you love me if I give you something you like.”

“yes I will. I love you Donna.”

 

“Oh Star, this is so beautiful! Did you write this all by yourself?” I asked (because surely this incredible work of poetry had to have come from the mind of a well trained, experienced writer :)). Star was so happy with my response…a perfect gift from a very excited eight year old. I miss you very much Star Bar…and I know you miss me too because you call like thirty times a day (don’t stop, it makes me feel loved).  I know it’s been good for you to experience life with your mom (it’s certainly given you some perspective on reality), you say you really like your new school (although you’re unhappy with your new schedule), you say you’re having fun with your cousins, you tell me you’re in love (keep holding on to that V-card, Girl, I’m so proud of you), but still you call all the time…and we talk…and I smile.

I love you Starzy Barzy and I hope to see you soon. Until then, keep making right choices and call me whenever you need me.

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Sweet Carrots

I have a dilemma…please anyone with the solution?  I mean, by the fifth child, you’d think I knew everything. Well, so sorry to disappoint…I only know almost everything (just ask my husband). OK, back to the point…I have a fabulously chubby six month old. He absolutely loves to nurse, I mean he really loves the breast-milk (mine must be extra sweet cuz my two year old is wrestling with my shirt right now…talkin’ about “booby”). Anyway, the baby nurses all the time and he still won’t take a bottle or a binky (had the same problem with the other four). He obviousely loves the idea of food because whenever we’re eating around him, he stares at us like he’s starving as he desperately tries to grab whatever it is we have…so I figured he would probably be happy to get some into his mouth – WRONG!!!

He hates food ya’ll. I don’t mean he dislikes it…I don’t mean he’ll get used to it…I mean he really, really hates food. As advised by most pediatricians, I started with single grain cereal (rice), then I tried green beans, and tonight I tried sweet carrots. They say not to jump straight to fruit or the child may never like veggies, so I thought sweet carrots would be a good middle option – WRONG!!!

So here he is, A’Darius LaVette Sparrow, with all of his juiciness (he sure looks like he enjoys food), reacting to tonight’s sweet carrots with all the precious honesty of a six month old…hilarious! I love you Little Man…I don’t know how I’ll ever fill up that round belly of yours enough to even hope I get to sleep through the night (he eats like every two hours) ever, ever again…but I sure do love every ounce of your sweet goodness.

I’ll keep plugging away at this thing called motherhood as best I can. The only thing more swollen than my boobs right now is this gut that I’m way too tired to work off, but I will continue to keep on keepin’ on. I have a feeling I’m not going to get you to eat anything unless I put a fat slice of pepperoni pizza into those big mits of yours…Oh well (sigh).

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Farewell Sweet Friend…

Oh 2009, how I will cherish the time we had together…precious time…so fleeting. You saw me through so many things and now, well, now you are leaving. It’s so hard to let you go, especially knowing that I will never see you again, but the memories I have of you belong to me forever.

Oh 2009, thank you for the baptisms of five of us (me, Tony, Little Tony, Dev, and DeeDee) and the dedications of the other two of us (D’Lo and A’D). Such a great experience to share with my precious family. The departure of Fayzonn and Star were difficult, but the high school graduation of Antone was a proud moment indeed. The wedding of the year (Shade and Devon) was a definite highlight of 2009 and one of my heart’s most cherished events…made me really feel the fruits of our labor. Speaking of labor…my perfect, precious, chubby, juicy, amazing A’Darius…my son, my last child, I love 2009 the most because of the arrival of my baby – on my very own birthday to boot, thank you 2009 for that!

2009 saw me through the entrance into high school of my oldest child, the celebration of a “period party” for my first daughter, the beginning of the last year of grade school for my third baby, and of course D’Lo, how he has grown throughout the year…finding his sense of humor as well as his incredible sense of “bossiness” (if that’s even a word). Just last week, we celebrated the “last of the first” Christmases with A’D.

I am so, so thankful for you 2009…I even love you…and I am sad, sad, sad to see you go. I will try to remember every piece of you as time continues to cruelly fly by…Farewell Sweet Friend.

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