Yesterday’s Window #1…The Journey Begins

August 9, 1994

So there we sat, criss-cross applesauce on the colorful carpet at the Portland International Airport. It was around two in the morning and I was SO tired that my eyes had to strain past the dryness in order to try to catch a glimpse of the new life we were awaiting. It was so quiet there, like a ghost town, the ramp was so empty, but still we watched and waited. Then, some glimmer of activity. Yes, a person became a few and soon a whole crowd of people filed down the far away hallway toward us. “Do you see them?” I asked this man sitting next to me.

This man, still really a boy himself but I didn’t see that then. To me, in that moment in time, he couldn’t have been more of a man. The mere smell of him nearly made me crawl out of my skin, and I would often take advantage of that by burying my face into that perfectly shaped part of his neck that was made just for me, and inhale him deeply. The first time we made love I actually cried as it dawned on my soul that this is who I had been waiting on…and then the question to his soul “Where have you been and what took you so long?” Although we were only twenty-one, it seemed as though it had taken an eternity to find each other…the reunion of the halves of our whole.

Now, two years later, we were waiting together for the arrival of two little boys, his brothers Rex and Daniel. I had never even laid eyes on them but I loved them already simply because they were a part of him. And as the numbers reversed themselves and the crowd walking toward us became a few and then none, there was still no sign of them. Still a few more minutes passed and finally there they were, looking so small in the distance, walking on either side of the attendant who was acting as chaperone. I looked again at him and he flashed me a grin and we rose to our feet. We were about to embark on the journey of our lives and, in all reality, had no idea of the challenges that we would face in the years to come.

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My Apologies…

I can only say that I am so sorry for being gone so long…and when I say gone, I mean, like, out of my mind…maybe a little post-partum, maybe just chaotically busy, maybe just, maybe just lazy, or tired, or procrastinating…maybe all of the above.  Anyhoo, as I’m sitting here in front of the monitor, fingers on the keyboard, I’m just now realizing how much I miss this. My thoughts flowing downs my arms, and exiting my fingers as they frantically try to transfer said thoughts through said keyboard, and into cyberspace.

It’s been crazy around here. Since I last updated, I have been vomited on (Church anniversary dinner, first new outfit since the pregnancy, and a two year old that seriously became sick the moment my butt hit the chair), that stomach flu circulated through my entire household, then another (with more cold-like symptoms) took it’s turn, my hard drive failed and had to be replaced (hence no photos today), we closed the sale of our property (some developer buying up our block), I’ve lost a ton of hair (could be the nursing, they’re running tests), I’ve cut off what remains on my head (first short haircut I’ve had since junior high), got a boundary exception for my son to transfer high schools (old school-boo! new school-yay!), his football season ended, volleyball season began (my oldest daughter), not to mention a nursing newborn (gentle giant) and a jealous two year old (tiny tornado).

I can elaborate further on these later. Right now, I’m about to try this Rogaine (Lord Jesus, please grow my hair back), brush my chops, wash my face, put on the wrinkle cream, and take my sexy butt to bed, lol…Goodnight Y’all.

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Meaning In The Moment

I had the amazing privilege tonight to watch the soon to be, Oscar award winning movie, “Bring It On-Fight To The Finish.” OK, I’m so not serious right now! Maybe just a little delirious from trying to sit through another Bring It On movie…I mean, wow, how many more of these will they make? Let me guess, an underdog team rises to the occasion, you know, they really bring it on, and in the end they emerge VICTORIOUS!!!!! Listen to me people…it has been “broughten” one too many times, K?

I can do you one better…my precious husband actually sat through the entire movie with us. At the urging of our daughters, who so excitedly explained to us just how great this movie actually was, we voted it through for movie night, we all found a comfy spot on the couch (it’s a very big couch), and we sat through two hours of total predictability. Tony tried to get up and leave and then – “No Daddy, wait, wait, the next part is so funny!”  He looked at me, sighed deeply, quick smile, and sat back down…Poor Daddy.

Then, without even knowing it was happening, something snuck up on me…The real meaning in this moment found it’s way to me. On my lap, D’Lo had fallen fast asleep. His perfect, little face still a mess from dinner. To my right, Devaney was sprawled out on that part of the couch I put the clean laundry (drives my husband crazy cuz we actually have a laundry room), of course she was sitting on top of that clean laundry. To my left sat my husband, belly to belly with our sleeping newborn son. A’Darius’ rolly poly body so perfectly positioned on his dad, his hairy little head being caressed by his father. To the left of my husband, Dee Dee and Little Tony sat, side by side, eyes locked on the TV, smiles fixed upon their faces…

Suddenly, the movie (even in it’s lack of entertainment value) wasn’t so important anymore. As I looked around at my family, I took a mental picture and, at once, locked it into my “Forever Memory Bank” (thanks Mama). Even as I write this post, that moment is gone. My children will someday be grown, God willing, with children of their own. They will look different, sound different, be different…and I am grateful for that too, but I still tucked tonight’s moment away for me… for my memory… forever.

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Feature Friday…SLIM (caffeine free)

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OVERVIEW

  • Caffeine free for easier stackability with other great AdvoCare products
  • A portable weight-management aid*
  • Formulated with Svetol® and Super CitriMax® – ingredients that support weight loss and fat reduction*
  • Supports appetite management*
  • Provides support for long-lasting energy*
  • Helps fight occasional drowsiness*
  • Works in conjunction with MNS® or as a stand alone product
  • Quick acting*
  • Great tasting Strawberry Kiwi flavor*

DETAILS

For anyone looking for an easy-to-use solution for weight loss and weight management, AdvoCare Slim® is the perfect answer.* Combining appetite suppression, energy and metabolic enhancers, this 2 oz. liquid serving not only helps you control your cravings but also promotes fat reduction and an improvement in your body composition.* Altogether, Slim has a synergistic effect, helping you manage your diet and maintain energy while changing your body from within.* It really is a system in a bottle!

Slim combines two proven ingredients, Svetol® and Super Citrimax®.

IS THIS YOU?

  • Anyone looking for a healthy weight-loss system that’s portable and convenient
  • Individuals who need an extra boost of energy
  • People who are looking for appetite control
  • Anyone with an aversion to pills
  • Someone who wants to add another weight-management tool in conjunction with MNS®

DIRECTIONS

  • For ages 18 and older.
  • For maximum effect consume the contents of two bottles daily.
  • Consume one serving 30-45 minutes before breakfast.
  • Consume the second serving approximately 2 hours after lunch, preferably mid-afternoon.

KEY INGREDIENTS

Thiamine
Biotin
Chromium
Green coffee extract Svetol (fruit – Coffea canephora robusta P.)
Garcinia cambogia fruit extract, Super CitriMax
Taurine
Inositol
Svetol® is property of Naturex. Super Citrimax® is property of Pharmachem Laboratories.

 

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Dee Dee Girl

My Dearest Destiny,

Mama loves you so much Baby Girl! You are transforming right before my eyes, and I’m really not sure I’m ready for this one. I know I’ve had lots of practice, not just with your older brother and sister, but also raising up Daddy’s sisters and brothers for the last fifteen years. I have previously witnessed the beginnings of puberty, the changes in body and attitude, and the transformation of relationship that come along with one’s children becoming young adults. I have experienced this nine times with those that came before you but still, somehow, I am unprepared.

You are in the fifth grade now, the queen of the school, the mayor of your class (as voted by your classmates). You are truly a gift to everyone who receives the blessing of sharing in your life. Your teachers rant and rave, our friends and the parents of your friends can only sing your praises, and your cousins always want to either spend the night at your house, or vice verse. You are a tender and sensitive spirit with the heart of an angel, and that’s just what I call you. Your older sister is my Princess (and she really does think and act like she’s royalty D to the I-V-A), but you, Baby, are definitely my Angel.

Thank You Father for the gift of my Destiny, what an amazing honor to be her mother! I pray that you mightily and diligently protect her all the many days of her life. I pray that even in her softness, You also instill in her the strength to always stand up for what is right – and that what is right will always be what she believes in. I pray that her inner beauty is always evident as You continue Your works within her, and that her amazing outer beauty remains present, but secondary, to everything else You have given her to offer this world. Please continue to bless our youngest daughter, and the rest of our children, in the ways that only You can…In Jesus’ name – Amen.

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