Introducing (drum-roll, please) Trezonn Santrell!


For those that haven’t seen his pic on my FB page (you can LIKE…if you like—->), this is my precious, newborn nephew. His name is Trezonn Santrell Wallace. He barely missed the coolest birthdate, 11-11-11…just a few hours late for that. Oh well. I have a feeling he’s gonna make a party out of November 12th – every year! His daddy’s name is Fayzonn. We took custody of Fay when he was just three. He was so dang cute…so I know that Tre has no choice but to be adorable as well!

I wish Fayzonn could have had the wonderful parents that he, that every child, deserves. I hope he always knows that we did our best to fill the void they left, whether they meant to or not, whether they have regrets or not…we tried to shine a light on a shadowed childhood.

I know, with all my heart, that Fayzonn will never leave Trezonn unprotected, alone, or in need. I know that he will value every single smile and kiss his little boy offers up to him. I know that Tre will never not know his daddy…Fay won’t let him ever experience that.

I love you, Fay! I am so proud of the father I KNOW you will be.
I love you, Tre! Welcome to the world, Lil’ Man.

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This Week’s Blessings, Part Two!


How does one even express enough gratitude for a weekend like the one I just had? I had the honor of wearing smiles and joyful tears while watching someone I love take vows with his soulmate…and also the miraculous blessing of being on the sending and receiving end of multiple texts and phone calls from another someone I love, as he welcomed his newborn son into the world. The combination of the two events has me exhausted, but in the best kind of way.

First of all, making all the preparations for a road trip with five kids is not, I repeat, IS NOT an easy task! I feel the need right now to give an enormous shout out to my Mama who suffered the same fate, uh, I mean experienced the same joy more times than I can even remember…thanks, Mama.

Second of all, feeding a family of seven while on a two day road-trip is not, I repeat, IS NOT a cheap task! I feel the need right now to give a huge shout out to my Dad who must have had to dig DEEP into those pockets to feed our family of nine for even a two hour road-trip…thanks, Daddy.

Lastly, and most importantly though, I can barely describe the emotions of witnessing the little boy that, I swear, was just smiling for his first day of kindergarten pictures at the bus stop around the corner from our crowded, little house – standing now in front of me a man…with a new wife and family no less. It was no easy task to get everyone ready (in a hotel room with only one bathroom) for the late-morning wedding vows. Add to that the wedding official who showed up an hour early, leaving me with only one shaved leg and a make-up job done in a moving suburban full of my children! We made it though. I had to think of pretty flowers to keep myself from crying, the moment I saw him waiting out front for our rushed arrival. The vow exchange was pretty quick, made between a young man, in love, and his beautiful-but-nervous bride. The reception that took place later that evening was so much fun…made only more memorable by the silly “sexy” dance performed by the groom on his way to take the garter off the leg of his new bride, and the horror of that same groom when his niece (Devaney) caught the bride’s bouquet, lol.

In between all of this activity – before, during, and after – I was getting constant updates from Fayzonn, who was in Mississippi – nervously awaiting the birth of his son, Trezonn. Finally, at about four in the morning…after all the day’s other chaos…I was on the phone with Fay, congratulating his new fatherhood and getting the details of my new nephew’s birth. There are no words to describe this emotion either. The little boy whose fourth birthday I planned so carefully…is now a father himself. His last text to me today was: “Man, i love my baby, dats my heart. I swear he iz.” My response to that: “I know…and you’re gonna love him more everyday.”

Back to my original question – How does one even express enough gratitude for a weekend like the one I just had? The honor of welcoming four new members to our family (Antone’s new wife has two precious children) AND confirmation that I made a difference in the lives of Tony’s siblings…Thank You (once again), Lord!

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This Week’s Blessings


Thinking so much about the kids this week. Not the five blessings I gave birth to…rather the several other blessings that God put us in charge of, even if just for a time. It is a big week in our family – we will welcome four new members. I didn’t realize the time would speed by so quickly. Lord knows that there were days and weeks that just drrraaaaaggggggedddddd by – trying to provide for so many children, when we were really just kids ourselves. So many months of just not being able to see the light at the end of the tunnel, and yet…here we are.

Fayzonn will become a father by the setting of tomorrow’s sun…saying goodbye to the day will mean saying hello to his new son, Trezonn Santrell. Fayzonn always had such a loving heart, so affectionate by nature, so ready to love anything that he felt would love him back. I know he will be a great dad in that sense, but still I am worried about the lessons that life is waiting to teach him…I hope he is a good student.

Antone will become a husband on the day we honor our veterans…becoming one with not only the woman who captured his soul, but also her two children. He will be the head of a family…his family, and they will be a part of our family. I know that he is very much in love and I know he is happy, but it is such a big step for a young man to take. His responsibilities will be great, his joys may be greater…that is also my hope.

Also on my mind has been Star. She is halfway through her senior year and although it has been an uphill battle at times…she is a soldier. She will have the victory. I just know it. I love her and miss her everyday…and I know she misses us too. I love her phone calls, whether they are to celebrate another success or to vent in frustration of her present circumstances…I’m just glad that she still knows I am here for her.

I have had some regrets about our decision to take on Tony’s siblings all those years, I can’t lie. There have been times when I was resentful for the years, gone forever, spent taking care of someone else’s children, and then I am reminded…they were also my children for a time. I am still important to them, some more than others, but always a good memory in their minds, I think. I also have to remind myself that, after nearly two decades and my entire adult life so far, it’s not just about how I impacted their lives…but also how they defined mine. I am this woman because of the life that I have lived…that I chose to live.

And the truth is…I kind of like this woman.

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The Sparrow Says…#5

“The ability to identify and enjoy the truly important things in life…is what will make your life truly important.” ~ Donna Sparrow

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Wordless Wednesday…”Then and Now”

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