Getting Back To Our Beginning

After receiving requests to update This Nest’s “Yesterday’s Window” category, I realized that I’ve been soooo focused on what’s happening in our lives now…I’ve been neglecting the sharing of what brought us to this point. Our story is so unique, our journey has been so long, and we have conquered many obstacles that a lot of people will never have to battle.

If I tell you that three of the young men we raised are now back in our home, many of you wouldn’t realize who they even are by name. You wouldn’t know that the twenty-nine year old (Rex) with schizophrenia and developmental delays, who came back to us after his release from jail a few months ago, is a grown up version of a very sweet twelve year old that came to us in 1994 (the year before our first-born even arrived)…

And if I tell you of a nineteen year old (Antone) who now shares a room with our fifteen year old son, a young man who we are trying to guide into adulthood, how would you know that same boy started his first day of kindergarten with us, in 1996, as my camera clicked away while the school bus pulled up…

And the eighteen year old (Fayzonn) that just arrived this morning via Greyhound, a young man who decided a year ago that he wanted to return to Mississippi to be with his mama, you wouldn’t know that his first Halloween costume I made with my own two hands…the same hands that had to hold him down (as I cried) to get the immunizations he had no record of ever receiving as a baby.

How would any of you know of the literal blood, sweat, and tears we poured into seven children that we didn’t even bring into the world when I haven’t opened up about that nearly as much as I should have? Some of them were ours before we even had our own, and some joined us later…because they needed us…because God asked us to step up to the plate and give it our very best swing.

Well, I’m going to focus this month on trying to catch you up. I’ll update about the goings-on in our home now, and I’ll still have to share the funny, little “D’Lo-isms” that I can’t resist passing along…but I will also be adding to Yesterday’s Window so that you can know how we built This Nest…

I hope you are able to keep up 🙂

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Happy Third Birthday, Madman!

I took these photos last night after I got him to sleep…they are the last pictures taken of him as a two year old.

Tony and I always wanted a fourth child. We always knew he was a boy, and we always knew his name was D’Angelo. When we were twenty-eight, and after the birth of our third, we were ten kids strong since his seven siblings needed us to be parents to them. At that time, we decided to get my tubes tied. I mourned for months the loss of my fourth child. I know, I know…how could I mourn for a child that never existed? Well, to me, he did exist…I mean, I knew his name already. I had imagined him over and over again in my mind…and to my heart, he existed.

At the age of thirty-five, and with the Tony’s siblings now growing up and moving on, we decided to go for it…we untied those tubes and guess what?! God’s plan (the one that I always knew existed) came to fruition. Within two months of reversal surgery we were pregnant! Our fourth child, a boy named D’Angelo, the one I had dreamed about, was on his way. A month shy of a year after surgery, D’Lo joined this nest…a miracle, a gift, a blessing, a spirited, funny, crazy, smart, bossy, active, beautiful, little madman!

Happy third birthday, D’Angelo Antonio Sparrow…we love you. We waited so long for you to be with us and we are anxious to see God’s hand at work in your life…we know it’s going to be something special – just like you!!!

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All of Me

 
 
 
 My heart…it beats to greet yours, pounding next to me
 
My eyes…they see to meet yours, wondering what you see
 
My lips…they’re moist to feel yours, pressing against them
 
My love…it’s soft and anxious, to feel your warmth within
 
My skin…it reacts strongly, underneath your touch
 
My voice…forever reassures that I love you, so much
 
My mind…it travels past me, to our future that’s ahead
 
My spirit…soars to Heaven, higher than the angel’s heads
 
My tears…hold sweet emotion, with happiness they pour
 
My soul…a mate eternal, to the beautiful soul that’s yours
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Back To School Blunder

Back to school is finally back in full swing! Woooohoooooo! The lack of schedule, kids eating all day, chaotic, active, running in all directions, packing for the beach, slathering on the sunblock, friends over everyday, up late at night, busy, busy, busy-ness of summer isn’t even the issue for me…it’s that darn getting ready to go back that gets me every year! It’s expensive, and it’s frustrating, and it’s sooooo much thinking that this particular mama can get a headache with a quickness, lol.

We were just about to wrap up the last of school supplies, backpacks, lunch forms, sports physicals, sports clearance, ASB fees, Player fees, practice beginning, picture forms, new make-up and perfume/cologne, haircuts, new shoes, and finally, the ever-important back to school outfits…and I was just about through with sanity…

We were picking up two more pairs of jeans for my son and I didn’t see the size he needed. I looked around at all the sales people, with their badges and similar outfits, and decided to stop the two walking closest to us.

“Do you have more inventory in the back…or is this all you have out here?” I asked

This was received with a blank stare and a mumbled “uh…I think that’s all there is…”

I mean, seriously?! After all that I have been through trying to get these guys ready (and the term shop til you drop definitely applies here because I was about to pass out) and this is all the help I can get out of them?!

“Well, you’re so very helpful” I mumbled back, completely losing my Christianity in the moment of stress…and then quickly snapped back to my senses as my son (completely embarrassed) says quietly to me:

“Ooohhhh my gosh, Mom…they don’t even work here!!!”

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Wordless Wednesday…”Mommy’s Hands”

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