To My Baby Bubba,
My sweet, sweet little man, I love you so much. I’m head over heels in love with you, would give up my own life for you. I held you tonight, as I do every night, but this night was so much more than the usual rocking to sleep and tucking you in with a tender kiss. This night I studied your sleeping face, as it is right now in this fleeting moment of time. I thought about just how much your life is about to change. As I gazed down upon the miracle of you, my heart holds so much emotion for what is to come, and I worry. How will you feel about the looming changes? I know you will love your baby brother because you are such a loving child. You kiss and hug your baby cousins just as naturally as you breath. You often walk up behind me as I sit on the floor, wrap your baby short arms my neck, lay your head against the back of mine and sigh a loving “Oohhh.”
You also, however, can be a little overprotective of me, often physically pushing people away from me if they get too close, all while shouting some commands to them that are not quite English yet. You’re like a jealous boyfriend (definately your father’s son). I still nurse you a few times a day, probably should have stopped that already but I didn’t have the heart to take that from you. Every morning is the same, you start off with a juice box “jooth, jooth, jooth” you say, then you cuddle up with me in our bed, tugging on my tank top, “boobie, boobie” you demand.
So, I weigh both sides of you in my mind as I contemplate the very near arrival of your Baby Bruhbruh (I often ask you where he is and you point to my stomach). I know in the long run your life will be so much richer having him in it, but right now I pray for the short run. I kiss your precious, perfect, sleeping lips. I memorize your curly, dark brown hair as it so wildly frames your unbelievably flawless face, and I pray that never, ever will you feel that you are second to me now.
God, give us the strength, patience, and wisdom to always say and do only the things that will provide all of our children the confidence in knowing just important each one of them are to me and their daddy. Thank you for entrusting each of them to us, for finding us worthy enough to loan us the lives of these, your children. I hope we never disappoint You.
